“We Made It,” Sunni Patterson

So I’m from a stock
that pitch cocktail bombs and hand grenades.
We pour cayenne pepper around the perimeter of a building
to keep the police dogs at bay.
I’m the Panther Party
in the Desire Housing Projects in New Orleans.
I’m nigga turning the gun on the National Guards.
Take a long, long look.
I’m a cook in the kitchen
asking the missus to taste the dinner
take a long, long sip,
‘cuz death ain’t always this good.
It’s eyes popping out they sockets.
It’s a lifeless body rocking backwards and forwards.
It’s a boy stabbed forty-seven times
in front the church house.
It’s a man forty-three years old,
stuffing his penis in a nine-year-old girl’s mouth,
naw, death don’t always taste good
just don’t sound like something I want to eat often.
I hear them say
it was like a train came through the room
left mama so depressed she was unable to move
until this one day.
It was like a few months after the hurricane.
Husband and child found the trinity bloody in bed.
His wife, his son, his other daughter was dead,
and on the end table there was a letter that read,
it said, “I couldn’t stay here,
not for one minute longer,
and it made no sense for me to leave here alone,
’cause who would take care of my babies
with they mama gone?”
I’m telling you, death ain’t always good.
It’ll leave you fending for water and food.
It’ll riddle up your body in the Audubon Ballroom
They’ll El-Hajj Malik el-Shabazz you,
crown you king, then dethrone you in a Lorraine Hotel.
They’ll disfigure your body to where folks can’t tell
if you Emmett Till or not,
tell the mama, “Keep that casket open,
let all the world see it ain’t just burning in Mississippi.”
Hell, it’s hot wherever you be,
from the rooftop to the cell block,
step on up to the auction block,
and bend over,
touch your toes,
son, show your teeth,
lift her titties,
examine his balls,
now, this damn near sound like a hip-hop song,
but it’s slavery at its peak,
a circus for all the freaks.
They’ll warn you, “Caution when you speak,”
can’t afford the truth to leak,
but will say “Blessed are the meek
and are the ones who make peace
and are the ones who are persecuted
for the sake of righteousness,”
for we say theirs is the kingdom,
earth is their inheritance.
So no matter how treacherous,
they’ll try to trap us in them trenches,
and they’ll dig deeper ditches,
but all that matters is this.
Which side will we pick,
which path will we choose.
either win or lose,
‘cuz death don’t come in vain,
not for us to remain enslaved
or our spirits to remain in cages.
It comes so we might be courageous
to fulfill our obligation to our God and all creation,
and stand in determination,
able to look death right in the face
and say we made it,
we made it,
we made it,
we made it.

“Sexual Privacy of Women on Welfare,” Pinkie Gordon Lane

The ACLU Mountain States Regional Office came across a welfare application used in… (a certain state) for women with illegitimate children. Among the questions:
—When and where did you first meet the defendant (the child’s father).
—When and where did intercourse first occur.
—Frequency and period of time during which intercourse occurred.
—Was anyone ever present. If yes, give dates, names, and addresses.
—Were preventive measures always used.
—Have you ever had intercourse with anyone other than the defendant. If yes, give dates, names, and addresses.

THE PRIVACY REPORT, American Civil Liberties Union Foundation, Vol. IV, No. 3, Oct., 1976.

When and where did you first
confront loneliness?
When and where did you resist
the urge to die?
Did you pull a blind around
your sorrow?
Was anyone present? If yes, give
names and dates and addresses
Did you survive?
Were preventive measures always
used?
Who listened to the rage of your
silent screams? Give the frequency
and period of time,
dates and names and addresses…
Will you promise never to breathe ice?
To follow the outline
of a city street whose perspective
darkens with the morning light? Document.

“For the Record,” Audre Lorde

In memory of Eleanor Bumpurs

Call out the colored girls
and the ones who call themselves Black
and the ones who hate the word nigger
and the ones who are very pale

Who will count the big fleshy women
the grandmother weighing 22 stone
with the rusty braids
and gap-toothed scowl
who wasn’t afraid of Armageddon
the first shotgun blast tore her right arm off
the one with the butcher knife
the second blew out her heart
through the back of her chest
and I am going to keep writing it down
how they carried her body out of the house
dress torn up around her waist
uncovered
past tenants and the neighborhood children
a mountain of Black Woman
and I am going to keep telling this
if it kills me
and it might in ways I am
learning

The next day Indira Gandhi
was shot down in her garden
and I wonder what these two 67-year old
colored girls
are saying to each other now
planning their return
and they weren’t even
sisters.